Module 2 had taken a lot more out of me than I had expected after a breeze with Module 1. It was not just time. It actually challenged me mentally and emotionally to go through rigorous processes (which I detest and now I get why). There were moments I wanted to give up and just skip the tedious work needed. I admittedly closed the website twice and forced myself to return to the same materials after I felt less frustrated. But Scott’s words also gave me a kick in the butt, “Without properly understood and aligned values, passionate work becomes impossible. Please give these exercises the respect they deserve.”
So with that, I completed the second module of the LOYP course of which the materials revolved around Building Your Compass & Becoming A Self-Expert. The exercises required me to be as honest as I can with myself to help me better identify my values, my strengths or superpowers and define what success truly means to me. Starting the process was not easy, but curiosity to understand myself enabled me to complete the process. I even took the StrengthsFinders 2.0 Assessment as a bonus action and I was very surprised to find out that I had been able to identify 4 out of 5 of my top strengths correctly before attempting this test. This highlighted to me that I am actually highly aware of my own strengths and the tasks that I am good at doing. Unfortunately, I downplay these strengths whenever I choose to focus my energies on overcoming my ‘weaknesses’ or non-strengths. In fact for most of my life, I keep waiting for me to discover some kind of hidden talent like an ability to excel at a sport, draw or make music. I had never considered that my talent could be tied to my strengths. I saw those two things as separate entities. But now, Brené Brown’s words make complete sense to me:
“Let go of who you think you’re supposed to be and embrace who you are.”
Here’s one of my biggest takeaway from this module:
One’s talent or gift is NOT an ability, a skill or what one is capable of doing. It comprises of personal attributes that make up who you are and fundamentally determine what tasks you are naturally good at or what skills you are better able to cultivate.
I need to stop running away from who I am and denying the existence of my gifts. Instead, I must spend more time and energy in developing my top strengths so that I can pursue what I do best every day. Also in this module, Simon Sinek advised everyone to go back to our past to find the patterns that help us identify our WHY before we start on work that we are passionate about. “When you do something that you believe in, that’s called passion. When you work hard on something you don’t believe in, that’s called stress.” How true is that!
The best way forward for me right now as I seek a new employment is to consider WHY I want the job and whether the work involved would allow me to tap on and develop my strengths further. Realistically speaking, I am not sure if my finances can hold out longer for more interviews. But at least I am very clear why I may need to take on the next job even if it is not going to be for the longer haul. In the meantime, I will continue to work on discovering my WHY.
Be prepared for some ‘heart’ work in this module. Well, you have been warned.