With a full-time day job recently in place, it has become more tricky to manage everything that I had initially planned to do. One of these included writing in this blog twice a week. However, I clearly need to readjust my own expectations, so I don’t beat myself up for failing to keep up. It means a lot just having one or two persons stumbling onto my blog every day even when I did not write, and I just wanted to take this time to say I appreciate you, whoever you are and wherever you may be, for being here even if for a moment. Life is more than coincidences, and we are probably not very different in our own pursuits and struggles, no matter where we are in our journey with ourselves. So thank you, for encouraging me to keep on writing just by being here with me.
With all the mindful habits I have been trying to practise over the past few months, it now becomes a real test as I find myself increasingly being surrounded by a lot of negative energy or thoughts of this world. It amazes me how natural it has become for some of us to be that voice of negativity, skepticism or cynicism for others, and trust me I do have my moments of lapses too. But we definitely need to be aware of it before we can fully own it or learn to filter out what we hear or say, otherwise it can be so easy to join in the negative talks or be affected by negative perceptions. We live in a world of many ‘should haves’ and ‘should nots’, expectations and boundaries that hold us back from becoming who we really are or can be. And that is why, when someone recently told me I can be anything I want to be and that I can do whatever I want to do, it actually touches my heart to receive these words of affirmation. The world needs more people with such compassion and eyes to see the positives in others so that we can help to support and encourage one another along the way, not step over each other to feel better about ourselves. So this Christmas, believe and receive with an open heart when someone says something kind to you, no matter how much resistance or doubt you might feel at the same time. When we learn to receive, we will find that we are capable of giving more than we ever imagined possible.
More than anything, be kind and gentle to yourself. And I do this by being mindful of the positives happening around me as well. I remind myself that there are things I still manage to do even with my day job, like keeping my exercise regime and making time for people in my life. I try to stay with moments of vulnerability or discomfort, and then give myself a pat on the back for braving through them. I also choose to take risks in different ways to learn and understand myself better than ever before. It is perfectly okay to feel afraid or alone sometimes. You are good, and believe me, you will only get better.
I wish you a Compassionate Christmas!