In light of recent events, I feel it is only fair that I also acknowledge the positives that have unfolded for me. I have been allowed to leave the organisation two weeks earlier bundled with a compensation in lieu of notice. This was unexpected and wonderful news for me! I was going to offer HR the possibility of using the rest of my leave to offset the last two weeks so that I could get out earlier. Now I get to leave on top of encashing my leave. The universe works in ways beyond me and I am grateful for that. I am told that it really depends on the worker and how the break up happens. I will clearly be leaving on a not-so-bad note and I think this is because humans, even bosses, are innately compassionate. I had reached out and connected to that part of her.
I had been giving more thought to why everything that had happened in the workplace this year had affected me in such a negative manner. Had I been in this job fresh out of school, I was almost certain I would have manage the work and people at work differently. Was I actually becoming more and more sensitive because I was getting more and more attuned to my inner self? Was it all the meditative, heart opening work I have been doing in this recent year? I wondered if the way I felt so vulnerable was the Universe’s way of letting me know I had all these emotional baggages and unresolved issues that I needed to work on. That it was time to drop all the masks, unpeel the onions, and be congruent with who I am. At the same time, I know that all the unearthing work cannot take place without some amount of self-compassion.
The end is the beginning and I am just getting ready for come what may.
“True belonging is the spiritual practice of believing in and belonging to yourself so deeply that you can share your most authentic self with the world and find sacredness in both being a part of something and standing alone in the wilderness. True belonging doesn’t require you to change who you are; it requires you to be who you are.”